I’ve been epileptic for almost 13 years and my little brother is epileptic too and I’ve never actually seen one. I’ve been on camera having an absence seizure or anything like that and brother’s and very controlled so I just have to go by what other people tell me. I look “spaced out” but I feel like I can do that on purpose. I’ve had other people tell me what my grand mal seizures look like too when I have them and I’ve seen media portrayals of them too but I’ve never seen one in person either.
In a way I’m glad I haven’t seen a grand mal; it must be really hard to watch. At the same time though I’d still like to see what my body really goes through instead of just waking up and being told what it looked like.
- May 9
- , 2011